Avery and my wife have been sick for 3 weeks, with different bugs that they passed back and forth between them. Then we all got the flu on Sunday night and life has been reduced to basic survival around here. Sleep has been reduced to 10 minute intervals when I manage to drift off dispite… Continue reading So much sick
I've been trying to figure out how to express my opinion regarding a big parenting issue in my life. I don't want to offend anyone. I don't want to preach that my way is the right way and everyone else is just a hater. But I've felt pushed to parent in ways outside of my… Continue reading Sick is our new normal, parenting under a microscope
Anyone who has read more than a few of my blog posts will know that we've struggled with our baby's sleep, and I felt alone in that for a long time, except for the company of some fellow sleep deprived bloggers who put their experiences in writing. It seemed that everyone we talked to in… Continue reading Coming out of the woodwork: do sleep-deprived parents hide in shame?
Avery spiked a fever last Friday, and it lasted until Tuesday with very unclear symptoms, like one day of mild diahrea, one case of vomiting, a few coughs here and there, and one day of mildly runny nose. We couldn't peg the fever as related to a regular old cold or flu. When her fever… Continue reading Avery’s bout with Roseola
And it's not me. As I wrote in my last post, Avery was sick over the weekend (still is) and my wife was out of town. I was exhausted. When my wife got home she hesitated to tell me because she knew the day I'd had, but eventually came out with it: she wants another… Continue reading One of us wants another baby…
Avery's sick again. She has a fever and a dry cough, and feels crappy. My wife was out of town today and it was a LONG day for me. Avery was lethargic but upset. She didn't want to do anything but lay on a pillow on the floor and watch movies. I couldn't even get… Continue reading It’s so much sadder when they can say “mama”
1. I've been feeling like crap about my work output and my stalled, aimless professional trajectory. Then I received an email from the Canadian Centre of Science and Education asking if I had any manuscripts to submit to their journal. I know that a call for manuscripts is common and doesn't necessarily mean that the… Continue reading 4 Things on a Tuesday
I'm still at the proposal stage. This is my third proposal in three years. The first proposal I wrote was my favourite, but my community partner fell through (I was supposed to work with PFLAG, but the ED stopped returning my calls and emails with no explanation). My second proposal was co-developed by a co-advisor… Continue reading Writing a Dissertation Takes FOREVER
Post-partum was a lesson for me in just how hard having a baby was. I had dreamt of it being all naps and snuggles and having coffee at the cafe with her sleeping in the stroller. Nope, not in the cards for us. I struggled with post-partum anxiety. I didn't feel safe taking her anywhere. I was also fiercely protective and didn't like it when others held her. I tried to hide us away in a little bubble of my motherly love, hoping it would keep us both safe from the scary outside world.
I have so many things to blog about, and so much work to get done. I know I should be focusing exclusively on my PhD work while Avery is in daycare, but I can’t focus while I have some of these heavy topics on my mind. The first one I want to write about is… Continue reading Love and Jealousy, Desire and Passion