My wife and I go to her family cottage every weekend we are available in the summers. Although the cottage is nestled between sand dunes right on a beautiful body of water, it isn’t always relaxing for me. It is a tiny, quaint little cottage which is how a cottage should be, in my opinion; but when you get the whole family all together in the tiny space, the introvert in me starts to feel anxious and overwhelmed.
So when we decided to take our summer vacation at the cottage for one week, just the two of us, I was SO excited. But now that we are only a week away from our departure, I am starting to stress about all the work projects I need to cross off my to-do list before we go, about all the house & home tasks and packing lists… when will I have time to cut the lawn so it is not a hay field when we return? When will I get all the laundry done so we can pack? If I don’t get these two conference presentations done before we go away, will I be panicked when I return with only a week to prepare them? Will I be able to get this draft of my dissertation proposal sent off to my advisor before we leave? I have a meeting with my advisor the Monday after we return. When will I be able to access wifi at the cottage so I can do some marking that is only available to me during my one-week vacation timeline?
Every evening this week we have a social/volunteer obligation. The weekend before we leave we are helping family move. Of the 7 days we are up there, 3 days are packed with partying friends staying with us, one day my mom really wants to visit so she can celebrate our birthdays, and one or two of the days we will be cleaning and grocery shopping in preparation of all the guests. All I really want to do is spend time laying in the canoe at dawn listening to the loons, or reading a book under the beach umbrella, recharging my introverted energies.
I am feeling like vacations are more stress and work than they are worth in relaxation.