I was so obsessed with getting this show on the road, and now that we are finally serious about starting, my obsession has faded to a nagging reminder…
It really started last fall, when my wedding, the romanticism and coziness of late autumn weather, and the impending xmas cheer brought out the baby-crazed version of myself. I couldn’t think of anything I wanted more for xmas than to share it with a child. Since then I have been varying shades of obsessed with growing our family.
Now that we have most of our ducks in a row, I find myself so focused on work, volunteering, and social obligations that baby making plans have kind of fallen off my radar. We have had a couple of sample donor agreements sitting on the table for weeks, needing to be reviewed and tailored to our preferences. For some reason I just don’t have the same energy and drive I had before to push tasks like this through.
It’s not that I want a child any less – I am still eagerly looking forward to being a family of 3. I guess life just got too busy and forced me to go with the flow. So go with the flow we shall.