It is 3DPO today. My temperatures and ovulation tests did exactly what they were supposed to do, and ovulation was very easy to predict this time. We got 3 inseminations in: 2 days before ovulation, 1 day before ovulation, and on the day of ovulation. Research suggests that you can’t get any better timing than that. The quantity of “the goods” was also a big improvement from last time. I don’t know if our donor is drinking more water or just aiming better, but there is a notable difference!
All these promising factors aside, this time around I am trying to convince myself that I’m not pregnant. I had images in my mind of sharing our happy pregnancy news with family by showing them a 7 week ultrasound picture on Christmas morning. If I let myself keep daydreaming scenarios like that, the disappointment of a BFN would be intense. Last month when I updated my blog that cycle day 1 had come, I was feeling fine. The next day, I was not. I was still kidding myself that I could possibly have a surprise pregnancy after spotting for a day. But when I got the worst cramps I have ever gotten on cycle day 2, I was pretty distraught.
So I am going to try to keep my daydreams from running away with me this time. I would rather be pleasantly surprised than disappointed. I have lied to friends, telling them outright that we are not trying this month. That way no one else will expect me to be pregnant either.
All that being said, I think I still want to start taking pregnancy tests before my period is expected. It was definitely worse to get the news that I wasn’t pregnant while dealing with horrendous cramps and wild hormonal emotions.
7 days to go before I try to convince my wife to let me pee on a stick.