Definitely pregnant

We bought two more brands of test to confirm the results we got yesterday…


I am finally starting to believe it.

Here is how the whole thing went down…

Christmas Eve we spent at my sister-in-law’s house. My period was due that day, so every time I went to the bathroom my heart would race with fear that it would arrive… As the day turned into evening and my period hadn’t arrived yet, it became more and more difficult to suppress the excitement. That night neither my wife nor I slept very well… I was awake most of the night with light pms-like cramps, worrying like crazy that my period was on its way, just a little late.

In the morning, Christmas morning, it took all of the courage I could summon to get up and go to the bathroom. No period. I peed in a cup. Still no period. When my wife got up a few minutes later we cracked open our box of tests and dipped. I went back to bed and felt certain it would be bad news. When my wife walked back to the bathroom to check, she could see the strong plus sign from the hallway. We spent the next few minutes in shock…

Then we brought the test to bed with us and cuddled and let the nervous excitement wash over us.

We told our immediate families and best friends right away. We told my parents in person because we were going to see them that day. We wrapped the test like a Christmas present and told them to open it first. My dad saw it first and said “is it a toothbrush?” Clearly he wasn’t familiar with the brand name Clear Blue. Then my mom shrieked and cried and my dad wasn’t long to get what was going on. Later in the day my mom kept warning us that it is super early and we shouldn’t get too excited, but I say Fuck That.

During the TTC part of our journey I was a negative Nelly. I was pessimistic and full of dread and concern. And it wasn’t pleasant. I couldn’t see the light at end of the tunnel until it smacked me in the face. There is a light there, no matter what path you end up on. So I want to do this pregnancy thing differently. I want to let myself be excited. I want to let myself dream and plan for the future. If miscarriage happens, we will deal with it when we have to. But if this pregnancy is the one, if this sticks, I want to enjoy every minute of it.

We are 4 weeks pregnant. Our baby is the size of a Poppy seed. Wow. Just, wow.

7 thoughts on “Definitely pregnant

  1. This is the best present ever! What a great Christmas story to have! Congratulations!!! I’m so excited for you and can’t wait to hear more about your journey! Hopefully I will be joining you soon! 🙂

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  2. Eeeeeeeee!! grats ;.;
    I totally get taking the “fuck yeah it’s positive time!” approach. TTC kind of forces you to get used to disappointment every month, but with a pregnancy, there’s some real hope. So here’s hoping ❤

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