I had a constipation issue on the weekend… Constipation has been a minor symptom throughout the pregnancy so far, but it wasn’t causing me any real problems. I just wasn’t as “regular” as I used to be. By Sunday I realized that it had been 5 days since… you know. I also ate a lot of junk food at my sister in law’s baby shower that day. I woke up in the middle of the night on Monday in pain and feeling nauseous. My wife had to drive to the next city over to find a 24-hour pharmacy where she got me milk of magnesia, which worked wonders. Now I am back to normal and making an extra effort to consume plenty of vegetables and fibre. My stomach still turns when I see the cupcakes and chips in the cupboard leftover from the shower. Clearly my body recognizes them as the culprit of all the unpleasantness.
In other news (this time an existential symptom rather than a gross physical symptom), I have been feeling a lot less career driven since becoming pregnant. Although it may just be the emotions and fatigue of pregnancy that are making me feel this way right now, I am afraid of what it might mean for my drive and motivation after having the baby. I was in a meeting today and a friend/colleague Skyped in because she was home with her sick child. I felt so strongly in that moment that what she was doing, caring for her sick child, was so much more important than what I was doing at school. I am a bit concerned about how my demotivated feelings will affect my wife, because I think one of the things that attracted her to me in the first place was my drive and determination to be a fancy pants professor at a prestigious university. Now that I am content to half-ass my way through my PhD and create a flexible means to an income through college teaching and consulting, will she feel let down or disappointed? I’m not saying I want to switch gears completely from having a career to being a stay at home mother (although kudos to those who do), but I just care so much less about career now that our family is growing.
Hand-Me-Downs for Baby
From my PhD co-advisor:
- Portable toddler cot for travel
- Changing pad with 2 covers
- Baby Wrappers bath towel (ties around parent’s neck)
- large hooded baby bath towel
- Moby Wrap
- Baby Einstein books, DVDs, and flash cards
- 6 books plus Baby Einstein book set
- Bottle drying rack
- Baby Bjorn plastic catch-all bib
- Plastic food tray
- Home baby proofing stuff including an oven lock
- Net feeder x2
- size 2T snow pants
- Lamaze Play & Grow Octotunes octopus toy
- Medela breast pump with bottles
- Bath toy
- Bag of pacifiers
- potty training toilet seat
- soft teddy bear
- glow worm
- And the promise of a high chair in a couple of months when her youngest is done with it
New items from sister-in-law (doubles – more like quadruples – she got from her two baby showers):
- 4 cute onesies
- 4-pack of bibs
- 2 packs of wash cloths
Our one closet that we have cleaned out in the future nursery is now packed to the brim. This is the second large hand-me-down haul we have received, and we have another one coming next month.
Little bug was kicking up a storm last night! It felt just like the first time I thought I felt it – sometime in week 12 – but was a lot stronger. It still felt more like a fluttering than a tiny human kicking me from the inside, but it was moving all over, not just in one place. My cat was sleeping pressed against my bump and at first I thought it was the cat twitching. But I soon realized it was coming from the inside. It was super cool. I also thought I felt movement a couple of other times over the last couple of weeks, but couldn’t be sure it wasn’t just tummy rumblings. Every time I have felt something I have been laying on my side in bed about to fall asleep.
Bodily Experiences This Week
- Headaches. I went to bed with an ice pack on my forehead a few nights this week in an attempt to lessen the pain naturally. The pharmacist said tylenol can be constipating…
- Mucous discharge from the nether region. Disgustingly copious amounts. If I’d had this while TTC I would have been ecstatic because it would have signified one mother of an ovulation, but now I am just grossed out.
- Hip pain.
- Threw up twice this week. It seems to be more like an extra sensitive gag reflex issue than nausea induced.
Baby this week
- Little bug is the size of a navel orange at 4.5 inches long and weighing 2.5oz.
- can see light through their eyelids and will react when a light is shone through my abdomen.
- can make all kinds of facial expressions now.
- can now use fat as a source of energy.