Little bug has grown to term! Early term, but ready for survival on the outside none-the-less. Apparently the American Congress of Obstetricians and Gynecologists now say that 39 weeks is full term. While it is strongly recommended to not elect to have your baby out before 39 weeks, inductions for medical reasons should be perfectly safe for baby at this point.
Am I going to be a good mother?
As things become more real, more immediately impending, I’ve been having some “I’m going to be a mother” panic. Am I going to be a good mother? Am I going to bond with our daughter right away? Will I struggle with post-partum depression? How will I care for a baby when I feel so physically and emotionally exhausted right now? I’m worried that I won’t be able to soothe my baby, or feed her sufficiently, or that I’ll do something wrong and mess her up for life. I am guessing/hoping that these thoughts are normal and will pass…
Further testing and birth plan
Group B Strep NEGATIVE! This means I will be much better able to refuse an IV, as long as I don’t require a pitocin induction.
I’ve had 3 non-stress tests so far, and every time I’ve been in the hospital for testing, my blood pressure has been completely normal. I’ve only had two spikes measured elsewhere. I have 3 midwives: 1 kept telling me that we would be lucky to make it to 37 weeks before induction was necessary; another thinks the blood pressure spikes are rare and anomalous enough to mean nothing (and my blood and urine tests have been totally normal) and I can still try for a home birth; the third says that women labour best where they are most comfortable, so we can labour at home until blood pressure suggests it’s time to go to the hospital. I know that one can never know exactly how their birth will play out, but not knowing is stressing me out. Labour at home for how long? Do I bother setting up the birthing pool, or will I have to go to the hospital before then? So many unknowns. But ultimately it is still important for me to try everything I can to have my dream birth. If labour is allowed to start naturally, I will get as far as I can at home.
Little bug also had a biophysical profile ultrasound this week because of my blood pressure spikes. Everything came back perfect. The technican said she was a very good belly breather, which of course sounded reassuring. She also told me that little bug loves playing with her umbilical cord, and lo and behold, it is no longer around her neck. The tech told me she wasn’t supposed to show me the baby, but she did anyway. Oh. My. God. I am in love. She has the poutiest lips, chubby cheeks, and lots of little hairs all over her head. She is definitely still a girl. Her head is right against my cervix (and bladder…). She looks amazing. Seeing her again made me less afraid of induction – I want to meet her as soon as I can!
Preparations for Baby
We are ready. Completely and utterly ready.
- Installed car seat base (and window shade and mirror)
- Completed infant first aid / CPR training – I don’t recommend doing this at 9 months pregnant… You have to do a lot of hands on practice which involves rolling around on the floor. Definitely challenging.
- Tested out technical equipment like breast pump and baby monitor
- Packed most of hospital bag and Avery’s diaper bag.
- All baby laundry is done, all sterilizing of pacifiers and breast pump parts is done
Bodily Experiences This Week
- PMS-like cramping on occasion.
- Lightening crotch – jabs at my cervix
- Haven’t gained weight this week. Pretty normal for the last couple of weeks of pregnancy.
- Lots of leaking… I think I experienced some dried on colostrum in the nipple region, and I’m finding about a teaspoon of clear fluid in my underwear every day. I know it’s not amniotic fluid because it has been happening for a couple of weeks now and the fluid levels are still excellent around baby. Just a taste of all the bodily fluids that are soon to come…
Baby This Week
- 6 or 6-1/2 pounds, 19″