First period in almost 2-1/2 years

I’ve been expecting this. We night weaned a month ago, and I’d heard that breastfeeding at night keeps your prolactin levels up which can keep your period away. About 2 weeks into night weaning I started getting signs that I was ovulating – those old familiar signs that I used to get so excited over when we were TTC. And then today I got the first period I’ve had since my daughter was conceived in December 2015.

First, let me say how thankful I am that it was anticlimactic. I was worried that I’d have a horrible first period, with mammoth cramps and a monsoon-like flow. Instead, it came conveniently when I had my morning pee, and I didn’t feel a thing. I’ve always had really severe PMS cramping, likely because I had mild PCOS and cysts on my ovaries. I had some periods that I now know were really close to the pain of advanced labour contractions. So if this first post-partum period is an accurate representation of my future of periods, I’m a happy camper.

Despite the drama-free resurgence, I’m still feeling a lot of mixed emotions. It’s a symbolic end to the most meaningful time in my life so far – growing and nourishing my daughter as my body’s primary function in life (note: to each her own when it comes to what brings your life meaning). But I know that as she grows I’ll find more of my life’s meaning and purpose in raising her to be a well adjusted adult.

Getting my period also signifies a new beginning. I can now conceive again. We’re not trying for baby #2 for a long time still, but it feels different to be a fertile woman again. Being on my period is connecting me to the person I was before having a baby. I feel like I’m reclaiming my body as mine; it’s been primarily my baby’s for so long.

It’s a mixed bag of emotions, for sure. And even though I didn’t really experience any PMS this time, I still ate an entire chocolate Easter bunny because I always used to self-medicate my PMS with chocolate and wine. Old habits die hard.

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4 thoughts on “First period in almost 2-1/2 years

  1. I got my first postpartum period at 24 months with my first born. If you include pregnancy that would be 2 years and 9 months without a period. I was very happy to have mine back because we wanted baby #2 and I was already 38. After baby #2, still EBFing but I had a period at 9 weeks postpartum and haven’t had another since. Its different each time. And the drop in hormones(especially with reduced breast feeding) can shake you up a bit. Enjoy the chocolate. 🙂

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  2. I had all those same feelings too. I had periods starting a lot earlier (so did my mom), but when I finally started to be fertile again, it marked a clear change in my self-perception. It’s a bittersweet time, for sure. And you should be so proud that you nursed so long and Avery is such a healthy kid!

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